Monday, 8 December 2014

Today I Blogged

Sometimes I feel like I start every post with an apology and it feels like a confession.
This blog is irregular. That's just the way it is. 

It's been almost eight months since I lost my girl and it's not getting any easier to cope.

In the last two months, I've tried a few things to move forward and get out and about. For a start, I got a job at a primary school, thinking I would go into teaching. That did not work out. I lasted two whole weeks before I just couldn't handle the chaos any more. So I started working part time for a company with local offices. That lasted a month. I resigned today. Lesson of the day - do not try to work for a company  that does things differently and feels chaotic and confusing, if you are barely hanging on to your own sanity. 

We've also adopted a little pug puppy. Her name is Pugsleigh and she is very sweet, apart from when she terrorises the cat and is hyper an naughty. She is small and cuddly and smart as a whip. She can already sit stay and lie down. It's very sweet.

On the health side of things, scans have confirmed that I have a 5mm kidney stone that is not blocking or causing mayhem, so they have decided to leave it be and check it out in a year's time. They also found a benign 2.4cm growth on my adrenal gland, but haven't said anything about it. I have completed all the tests related to my breathing and should get an answer tomorrow.

I have finished the physiotherapy from my whiplash injury from the September car accident and have also completed all the tests to find out why we are struggling to conceive. Everything came back clear and normal. 

My consultant recommended I lose weight to help with that, so I was referred to Weight Watchers. I joined two and a half weeks ago and lost four pounds in my first week and two pounds last week. My weigh-ins are on Wednesday nights, which, strangely enough, is a really good day for it. 

The weather has changed and the cold has set in. I have not kept up with my skincare and my nails are badly bitten down.

I've bought myself an entry level DSLR Canon Camera (1200D) in the hope of motivating me to do more blogwise. Mr C also bought me a new laptop (a lovely little HP) - mine was more than 4 years old. 

I make no promises on regularity, or anything else for that matter.

All I can say is today, I blogged.

See you next time.

Friday, 10 October 2014

Cough Splutter

I still don't know what I'm doing with this blog. In fact, I still don't know what I'm doing with my life.
I can feel the time wasting away. The last six months have been horrific. I have been sitting, waiting to get pregnant again; waiting for life to get back onto the track that I believed it should be on.

I started a job last week; working as a lunchtime supervisor at a primary school. I thought it would give me something to do and maybe some clue as to whether I should go into teaching. I am still undecided, and at 37, it's getting a bit late in the day to not know what to do with your life.

I cannot express the frustration of feeling lost and not knowing your place in the world.

On top of that, I'm sick, so I am not exactly in the best place.

It seems to me that most of this blog, despite the best intentions has been a bit of a moany space.

I've come to accept that and I'm just going to go with it. When life changes, so will the content of the blog, I guess.

Wednesday, 10 September 2014

Dieting with MyFitnessPal

With everything that's happened in the last five years, I have put on a lot of weight. A lot.
I won't tell you how much I weigh. What I will tell you is that the journey ahead will be long and anything but easy. In the first place, I have to battle my own laziness when it comes to preparing healthy lunches (Dinner is seldom a problem for some reason), and the fact that, being at home, I have a tendency to boredom eat (along with other emotions).

This weekend, I decided enough was definitely enough. I am at my heaviest weight. I can't buy nice clothes, I am always tired and all my joints hurt. I am so unfit that I am sore and out of breath after walking up just one flight of stairs.

It's madness.

I decided not to wait until Monday to begin. Monday starts have never worked for me and I figured if I was going to take my diet seriously, I shouldn't wait for even one day.

My diet is not overly complicated. I just limit my daily diet to 1400 calories, try to not eat junk food and have more fruit and vegetables; just your basic healthy food choices.

Several months ago, a colleague of Mr C recommended an Android app called MyFitnessPal.

It allows you to track your caloric intake and exercise. It also has advanced settings if you want to fulfill certain nutritional and exercise goals.

Right now, I am just logging calories, but my plan is to become a more advanced user over time.

The nice thing about this app that I find so convenient is its database of products and the barcode reader.

I have yet to find something that it won't read and recognise. I can even go to restaurants and eat a nice meal and the app can help me choose my meal.

So far, it's been three days and so far so good.

I'll keep you posted.
Bye for now

Thursday, 28 August 2014

What I've Learned - Nail Polish

As I may have mentioned once or twice, I never went through the high school experimenting phase and have had to learn everything in my thirties.

I am a nail biter. I have been battling this for a very long time and I have found that, while I relapse regularly, the best way for me to not bite is to wear nail polish. However, if I wear too much, or if I wear nail polish (like Essie) which can be a bit rubbery, I peal it off, which is not good for my nails at all.

I am also a cuticle chewer and have yet to figure out how to keep that in check and get that pretty, smooth edge to my nails. So if anyone has any ideas please do not hesitate to enlighten me.

I have been trying to perfect nail polish application for a while now and while I am getting better, not every effort meets success. I cannot tell you how many times I have removed freshly applied nail polish over and over again until I have given up.

These are some basics I have learned so far:

When it comes to application, always use a base coat. It prevents your nails from staining.
The top coat makes the polish glossier and makes it last longer.
Have good lighting.
Go slowly . If I go anything close to fast, it just smears and gets onto skin and, well, you get the idea.
Take your time. For me getting nails right can take hours. This is because I have not figured out how to get my nails to dry faster.
Putting your nails in cold water supposedly helps it dry faster. It has not worked in my experience.
Don't use to much polish on a coat. this is particularly difficult if your polish has lost it's brand new consistency and has gone a bit thick and gloopy.
Having a hot shower, even when you think your nail polish is 100% dry is not a good idea. It just smooshes off. This was a very unhappy discovery.
Do not try very carefully to open doors, get things out of your hand bag or pockets. It will end in tears. Don't do anything at all. Just stay still, as if you were hunting Wabbits.

If you are messy and clumsy like me, get some cheap latex gloves. Wear them to do your toes. Then, take one off and paint that hand. When that hand is smooth dry, put a glove on that hand and do the other hand.
If you have to do any corrections that require nail polish remover (or if you are removing nail polish from toes), wear the gloves to protect you current nail polish from being damaged. This was an idea I came up with and tried because I often have to touch up or wipe corners and it just gets messy. I really like this idea and encourage you to try it and share it.

I have yet to discover how to get edges perfect. I have watched YouTube videos about this and, well, I still haven't got it right.

I do not know how to fix gouges and stop polish from fading at the edges. There is a lot still to learn, but I will get there and I will eventually get really good at it. I have enough polish to practice on, so why not. I do think, however, that should invest at least a little bit of time finding out other people's tricks and such and not try to figure it out all on my own.

What are your little gems when it comes to nail polish?
Please tell me in the comments below.
See ya.